Lots today:
1. So, the year after I come back from Indonesia, what happens at Grad night? Do I join Remedy and bless Frontline? or do I receive a blessing that I am not qualified for? Sigh at minor sacrifices.
2. Spring Break: Maybe I'll write one thing I'm excited for everyday till we actually leave.
#1. Excited to read textbooks/do homework on the beach. Warm sunlight bathing me while I read about partial differential equations, nuclear cross sections, probability and expected values, and bad debt expenses. Fun.
3. It's easy to get bitter at God for things you don't have. But focusing on what you don't have, makes you forget to be grateful for everything you do have. I should stop focusing on myself so much and just focus on God.
4. I think one of my previous statuses was "Keep your head up". Today, I pressed play on iTunes and a song called, "God will lift your head up"came on. Awesome. Even when I can't lift "Keep my head up to the sky" God will do it for me. How great is our God?
5. If you don't wanna slip, avoid the ice. So why don't we avoid temptation if we don't wanna stumble?
6. I am whiny. I am spoiled. I guess I expect everything to come naturally/easy to me. I want to have a perfect singing voice. I want to be the pinnacle of athleticism. I want to have multiple other traits that stand out above the rest. But the funny thing is, I don't try. I don't practice. I don't do my part. I get frustrated when I find out that I'm not a prodigy in any of these areas (prodigy = overstatement. Maybe competent is a more realistic word).
I decided that I'm gonna stop whining about what I'm bad at and instead work to improve it. I suck at running. I suck at swimming. I suck at biking. I decided that one of my goals in life is to partake in a triathlon. I never ran under a 7 minute mile. I learned how to ride a bike in 10th grade from my younger brother. I've never learned how to swim. So, in order to achieve this life goal, I'll have to practice till I drop. Sounds about what I'm aiming for.
I mean, even people with naturally gifted abilities practice. Who do I think I am that I don't have to practice? So no more complaining about my inherent physical ineptitude. Rather, I'll work on it, participate in sports more. I'm gonna keep at it until I'm good or reach an insurmountable plateau.
My unwillingness to try initially is also linked to my fear of failure/self consciousness, but that's another post for another day. I'm jealous of people who can try without shame when they mess up. Or rather, those who don't care that they messed up and try again.
Ironically enough, I think this also links to the spiritual side of things (ironic because we don't usually equate physical to spiritual). Sometimes I'm frustrated because I'm not blessed with spiritual discipline, powerful prayers, and whatever other spiritual gifts/traits.
But just as before, I don't do my part to cultivate them. I don't take the time to build them up, little by little. So just like the top part, I'm gonna try to do my best to develop my spiritual side.
7. I purposefully left the long one for last so that you guys could just read the shorter ones first. Well, it was last till I wrote this one.
That was long. overnOUT
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1. What time zone is your blog in?
ReplyDelete2. Your super double negative sentence in #5 is wrong. It reads, "If we don't wanna stumble, why don't we don't avoid temptation." Avoid is a negative verb so it's like triple negated.
Haha, sorry, I scratched my head too much on that sentence that's why.
6. I'll run with you after Spring Break.
ReplyDelete5. We don't avoid temptation because we wanna be tempted and stumble. We just say we don't wanna be stumbled but we actually do because being tempted feels good. If it didn't feel good it wouldn't be temptation because we wouldn't even be tempted. Yep.
I changed my mind.
ReplyDeleteSometime's we're tempted beyond our capabilities to avoid it. So when that type of temptation comes, we have to discipline ourselves to run from it.