Thoughts [2/03/09]

1. How long can you wait? This question pops up during my prayers all the time. It's like,

Me: "Hey God, I trust that you'll provide me with someone, but just between you and me, what's the time frame for that?"
God: "How long do you think it'll be?"
Me: "Well, I could wait like...you know, till senior year at least."
God: "At least is right. Seriously, senior year?"
Me: "I guess I could wait like..five years, granted that you're gonna hook me up with the perfectest person."
God: "And if I said....seven years?"
Me: "O gosh, I guess..."
God: "Thirteen years?"
Me: "Thirteen?! that's like..when I'm THIRTY TWO!!"
God: "I'm well aware of that."
Me: "I mean, if you say so.. I guess....you're the BEST matchmaker right..?"
God: "And what if it's twenty years?"
Me: "....."
God: "Thirty five? Fifty?"
Me: ".....I mean...fine...I guess...whatever..."
God: "And if I say never?"
Me: "But God, that's like...I mean...I know it's a gift, bu-"
God: "Singlehood is a gift too, remember?"
Me: Sigh....

So my resolution is something like, live in the moment rather than living in expectancy. God's timing is God's timing, so I'll just wait till He says "It's time." Whether that's when I'm 22, 26, 32, 54, or 69, hahaha that's a crazy age, and especially if He says no, then I think it's better to be just living life contently in the now, rather than waiting for something that I don't know when I'm gonna get/never get.

BUT!! If you think about it, the crazy case would be if I waited for like 20+ years or whatever and then missed my chance. -____________________-;; That would just be sad...