ACCESS IMPACT

Admittedly, I dozed off for around half of ACCESS today, but! the latter half, which I was awake for, really opened my eyes to some things.

1.Recently I've been thinking about how much I fear failure and what others will think of me. Biggest example, I don't like to play sports a lot because I'm too afraid I'll suck and of what others will think of me when I suck. Therefore when I play, I suck. I like to avoid those situations so that I will not have the opportunity to fail. But I think I need to suck it up and just have fun and stop thinking so much about myself. Easier said than done.

2. P.Seth was definitely on the money. I think I love attention. sigh. So I talk a lot, and quite often about myself. It really struck home when I realized that I have trouble keeping somethings secret. I always end up telling people after making a big deal about the secret because I like being sought after to reveal the secret and I also like to publicize when I do something good. Exactly like a Pharisee. I think that's why it resonates with me when people define humility as "Not thinking less of yourself, but rather thinking about yourself less". Definitely need to stop trying to glorify and proclaim my name, and start bringing glory to His name. NawImean?

overnOUT

P.S. Yay Talib Kweli for being part of Call + Respond. You's ma hero!