Thoughts [1/31/09]

Crap! I had a last minute thought while washing up.
But by the time I got to writing it down, I forgot.
Maybe next time...
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1. Don't you hate it when that person who is below you in some way (age, grade, maturity, etc) says something in a condescending/self righteous way to you? Don't you feel like, wth? Do you know who you are and who I am? You think you can say something like that to me? Have you even thought about what you're saying? Do you know how underdeveloped you are compared to me?

I do sometimes (though the above part is exaggerated)...I hope you guys don't. Cuz it doesn't matter who says it, if what they're saying is right, then you gotta listen. Let's humble ourselves! It doesn't matter who says it, what manner they say it in, if what they're saying is right, then we gotta listen, no? Even if the person is hypocritical, immature, etc, it doesn' t make their words any less true. Something I've learned. Probably something I've said. haha

Just cuz I'm uber flawed doesn't mean that my words can't ring true sometimes. XD

2. Don't ask questions if you don't wanna know the answer. Sometimes we ask questions expecting and only ready to accept one answer. What's the point of asking the question then? Is it just a ritual of formality? I feel that it happens a lot when I pray. I find myself asking myself if I am willing to accept the answers God will give me.

Questions can be open ended or yes or no. Just be ready for the no.

Thoughts of the day [1/30/09]

Mad thoughts during opening worship. Those songs are money.

1. The Time has Come - The "Today, Today" part got me. That it's a daily struggle. That everyday I must consciously commit myself to Him. For me, it was like, "at least today I'll give you praise, but tomorrow? I don't know, I can't guarantee it". Probably not the aim of the song, but that's what hit me.

2. In This Place- "Troubles may surround me, my heart may fail, but you never will" Isn't that crazy? I mean, I think what I've been going through, especially my semi-breakdown this week is what I can to refer as to my heart failing. But even then, He won't fail me. He'll be there for me when I can't be there for myself. NICE.

3. So, if you know me, you know that I like to sing a lot. I didn't say good at singing, just sings a lot. hahaha. Anyways, we always say that worshiping isn't limited to praise time and almost anything and everything can be a worship. What would it be like if my life was worship? Like if my everyday life was as focused, desperate, joyful, and passionate as my praise is (It's focused, desperate, .... compared to the rest of my life)?

Yeah, weird.

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Blessings Galore

So, Eunil and I made the invitations for the girls blessings today.
Required quite a bit of work.

But the irony is that I was the one that was blessed at our class prayer gathering.

Quick thoughts

1. When you finally realize that you're still a boy, it's then that you took the first step to becoming a man.

2. I haven't been able to fall asleep on time lately. Too many thoughts blow up my mind and it takes me like 20 minutes to fall asleep.

more later.

Yo's.

Aite.

Rash moment made me block everyone, but no fears. I'm back.

Ok seriously though, I have to get better with time management. Grr. Like I'm doing homework technically due tomorrow, tomorrow. -.-;; Yeah, major time crunch.

So I'm too flustered right now to think of anything, but! keep praying for me.

-Sam

Defeated but not Dead

Today was not a hot day. As in, it kinda sucked.

Not enough sleep + Caffeine crash + harsh news = sad, defeated Sam

But it's ok, cuz I'mma fighter. I'm like a lizard, I just regenerate.

Life's tough, suck it up.

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Bowling for the first in a while

Went bowling in a while. Hit 145 on the warm up and it went all downhill from there.

MAJOR THANKS TO STACEY NUNA!!!

I realized that all the blessings that I receive, starting with all of the ones from freshman year, just remind me that as I get older, it's my turn to carry the torch and bless all those around me. Like I said earlier, I got to reap what I didn't sow and so I will sow what I will not reap.

anyway, that about sums up my day.

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Thoughts of the day [1/25/09]

Rough Day, but here it is.

1. "You make everything glorious and I am Yours.What does that make me?" I think God has been helping me to see through his grace filled eyes. Yes, I can still be very critical about appearances. But recently, I think I've been able to see a glimpse of how everyone, EVERYONE, is beautiful in God's eyes. That nerd walking down the street, that kid with the weird mole, those people with braces, etc, etc. Everyone is beautiful in God's eyes. I hope to see more and more how everyone is beautiful.

2. It occurred to me today, "What if there's no hell?" What if, despite all of this emphasis on receiving JC as our savior, God just allows everyone into heaven? It seems like something God would do right? Like he did with Nineva, except in that case they all repented... -.-

I dunno, I was just thinking that it would be really surprising if in God's ULTIMATE love, he just ended up letting everyone in. I mean, we're all undeserving in the first place, so maybe it's not THAAAT far of a stretch. =X hopefully I didn't say anything blasphemous. lol

3. I want to be a humble intellectual. This is hard. Dumb people almost always annoy intellectual people. Sometimes I get frustrated when people can't see/understand things my way. Not saying I'm smart...I guess I just wanna be humble ^______^V

4. I feel that a lot of the time, intellectuals and scientists don't accept any of our faith because science says that things don't work like that. Like, evolution disproves creationism. Or the water to wine. Or all these other miracles.

I think they miss the point that God is not bound by logic or the laws of nature. My English teacher once said was that religion, by definition, was irrational. And I think that puts it well. Yes, scientifically, water can't be instantly turned into wine, but the thing is, our God is not bound by science. I know, I know, in an actual argument, this just sounds like a cop out/easy way out. But it's the truth. You can't argue God with logic or science, because He is confined by neither.

Hopefully my thoughts are not that discombobulated. It's a definite possibility since it's late.

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ME.

Sometimes I'm really envious and greedy.

I want to sing better.
I want to be more artistic.
I want to have a regular jaw -.-;;
I want more.

More for myself.
More for my fame.
More, so that I can be the one wowing people.
More for my own glory.

Shame shame shame shame on me.

I need to learn to be gracious.
Learn to thank God.
Learn to treasure the gifts and blessings that I am fortunate enough to have received.
Learn to rejoice in all that He's given me.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

I think I have this jaw, honestly, as an anchor for my pride. To make sure that I don't get too full of myself. In that case, it might be the most precious asset that I have.

To God be the glory.

이 약한자를...Thoughts of the day [1/23/09]

1. I know we love to place our academics above God, or if not love, we tend to. But if God says to sacrifice my GPA, shouldn't I do so willingly? Trusting that he has everything planned out for me/has even better plans for me (even with a lower GPA)?

2. You Alone Are God has a line that goes, "Let the world I know be the glory of your grace".
How amazing would that be if what we saw in this world was the epitome of grace? How crazy would it be if this world would bring glory to God because it was defined and characterized by grace? simply sick.

3. Getting prayed over is powerful. Specially when you don't ask for it/it's not a planned event.

4. Gotta start working on spiritual muscle more than physical muscle. Still need to make time for both.

May God help us lead counter-natural lives.

Overwhelmed.

Man, like my previous entry said, there's barely time for a breather these days. School + Church + Work are a lot on my plate and it's getting a little too heavy.

Classes are picking up and the material is pretty dense and difficult to understand.

I can't seem to do anything right at work. She told me that "forget a lot". But honestly, I think I'm just being prideful. I really do need to get better at what I'm doing. Just wish she would give me more time/patience. *complain complain*

NOTE TO SELF: Resolve to stop complaining.

Despite this, they tell me I have 166 days. I can't let this stuff hinder me, can't let it get in the way. Must embrace them and make them mine.

The art of the soul is lost to the mind
is what you'll find when you can't define,
with reason nor rhyme,
the light that shines
on your face and mine.

Thought: I wanna get jaw surgery, shave my head, get scratches in my eyebrows, get jacked, wear a wife beater and walk around in sunglasses frightening people. Yeah, I need to grow up.

Just a short entry I wanted to jot down.

So Jam Packed.

Oh man, it's been so jam packed lately. I have homework due everyday and I've been working like 3 hours everyday, so there's been absolutely no time. So. First off, I have to schedule my time around God, cuz there's no other way he's gonna fit.

I guess just some things we talked about life group that I would like to share:

1. We limit God: Our prayers, our faith, our openness. God has already poured himself out unto us, but we fail to open the hatch of our hearts to let that stuff get in.

2. Awakening: 21 days of prayer has helped me to pray more powerful prayers and has helped to slowly develop a mindset of constant mode of prayer.

3. I want to integrate God into my life more. He shouldn't be confined to just my QT time or church time. He should have continuous access to my heart all the time.

4. Serving. It sucks sometimes, because there's sacrifice involved. But! it's that exact same type of sacrifice sowed in by other people before me that allow me to receive the blessings I have. Truly, we reap what we do not sow, and we should sow what we will not reap.

Songs that have resonated within my heart (You should check em out):
-Give me your eyes (Brandon Heath)
-Empty Me (Chris Sligh)
-The Blessing (John Waller)

Thoughts[Fri-Mon]

It's not like I stopped thinking during the retreat, so here we go.

I wonder sometimes people refer to the cross as the "tree". Is it just an artistic way of saying it? Or perhaps there is some symbolism involved? A tree is living, a cross is dead. Maybe it signifies that just as the tree is a living thing, Christ's death for us is in a way living. It pays for every time you sin. It's not a stagnant forgiveness and cleansing, but one that is activated in the present, with every mistake we make.

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The men of faith:

Abraham: Simply crazy. God says go and he just packs up his bags. How is this possible, who in their right minds would do something like this. With no destination and just a command he leaves the home of his forefathers. He also believes against all physical possibilities and believes that somehow Sarah, with her old and dusty ovaries, will bear him a child.

Noah: Starts building a huge ark at the command of God, probably on a nice sunny day. Can you imagine the faith necessary to stand in the face of humiliation and believe that God is right, even if there is no sign of what God spoke of? I mean, I would have at least lied and said I was an artist and the ark was my creative creation.

Moses: This guy leaves the good life of royalty to side with the slaves. Ends up being a shepherd for a number of years and then is called by God to carry out his plan. This guy isn't as crazy, because he knows what God is saying is ridiculous and because he doubts, i.e. is normal. Then again, he believes in God enough to allow God to work through him to split open a sea.
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It's amazing how different HMCC is from a traditional Korean church. I feel that the downfall of the Korean churches are their pride. The members are so stubborn and prideful. They make it almost impossible for the pastor to preach about real humility. They don't leave any room for rebuke. The pastor is unable to say what he needs to say, sometimes because the members may have been there for longer than he has or because they are older than he.

I think HMCC is amazing because the members make it amazing. There's a sense of real yearning to grow, even at the expense of ourselves. Or perhaps it's just because pride hasn't rooted itself in our hearts as much as these old people. Pastor Seth says what he needs to say, what the members need to hear, because the most of the members are humble enough to listen.
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Isn't it funny that the saying is "Love makes the world go around" or "What the world needs now is love, sweet love"? Ironic to me, because these sayings may leave no room for God to the atheists, whereas to me, it's synonymous to God. God is love for us Christians, right? It's funny that it's not, Justice makes the world go around, or Money, Comfort, Fame, Honesty, Strength, etc. All of these things, some good, some not so good, might be worthy of the title and yet we pick love.

Does this show the inherent human longing for love? For the true, unaltered, unfiltered love? for....God? I think it might. and I think it's ironic that justice is nothing in light of God.

In some sense, there is no room for justice in God's world. If it were so, we would pay the price of our sins. But, because of Jesus' death/resurrection, we don't pay for the consequences of sin, rather only the consequences of our actions. Hopefully, you guys can understand the nuance here. For example, you make an action. Depending on whether that action is a sin or not, there is a consequence. But there's also the consequence of the action itself, which doesn't really depend on if it was a sin or not.

Retreat Update

The retreat was amazing.
This fast is amazing.
God is amazing.
I love Him.

The first night we talked about "willingly confessing our sins so that we may experience the joy of being forgiven". It's funny because part of the sermon goes hand in hand with what I've been learning about recently. How I don't even know the depths of my soul and that only God knows.
"Search me, O Lord, and know my heart". It's a verse I've been clinging to these days. It's because I think I know me. I think I know the breadth of how dastardly I can be. But the truth is, I don't. I don't even know myself as well as God does. So confessed our sins to one another and mine is this.

I still live to glorify my own name.

How crazy is that. But unfortunately, it's true. The little actions in my everyday life point to that conclusion. Which is why I've come to another conclusion.

Even the little itty bitty parts of our lives must be put before God.

Why? Because he demands ALL of us. Our WHOLE being. If we keep even the smallest parts of ourselves to ourselves, it's not going to work.

And after confessing so to my brother on the left, I felt it. See, most of the time, during praise, everyone has that desperate face. The one that is seeking Him with all the might they can muster. But, that day, for some reason, I couldn't help but to have this content smile on my face. And the song wasn't those fun, happy songs either. I felt like, as wretched as I was and always would be, God is and always will be embracing me in his arms of grace.

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The second sermon was about faith. It was about how "we must hear, come, & touch Jesus by faith". The question was, are we just part of that crowd around Jesus, jostling and touching up against him, or are we the desperate lady, who is actually able to connect with Him in all that chaos. I realized something pretty cool, or maybe I've just been oblivious before.

With faith as small as a mustard seed, God can move mountains.

I guess, up until now, I thought of it like, "If I have this kind of faith, I can move mountains". I didn't think, "even if I offer up this tiny, unworthy, flawed piece of faith, God is so powerful that he can use it to move mountains". Something that I thought was quoteworthy was "To have great faith, you need a great God".

And of course, the greatest barrier to faith is pride, i.e. my biggest problem.

So Lord, help me to be more like this desperate woman. The one thing I find amazing about her, is that she broke away/went against the culture/the expected, required path and she abandoned it all for Jesus. I wish I could something as such. To go against the traditionally drawn bounds of this world and do exactly what Jesus calls me to do, even if the world tells me I'm not supposed to.

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Third sermon was about how "we must lavish our love on God".
It talks about how our love must surrender and offering. To me, the epitome of this is the Macedonian churches that Peter talks about in 2 Cor. 8. It was said of these churches that "out of the most severe trial, their overflowing joy and their extreme poverty welled up in rich generosity. For I testify that they gave as must as they were able AND EVEN BEYOND THEIR ABILITY"

Wow. What does that even look like? I want to be someone like that.

Also we talked about how every opportunity is a unique moment in time that can never be replayed again. Therefore we seize every opportunity with the best of our abilities so that we may be like Mary and WASTE our lives to worship Jesus.

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Last one. We must live in expectancy, as everyday is a day closer to Jesus' return/our death. Also, what I got out of this was that I must love till it hurts. period. oh, and that we must use our gifts that God has given us. The gifts and blessings God has given us are like the mina that the master gave the servants.

When Jesus comes back and asks me, "What have you done with ALLLL of the blessings and gifts that I have given you?" how will I answer?
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Through the 21 days of fasting, I can already feel God working in my life. My prayers seem so real, so sharp. It feels like some sort of spiritual steroid was injected into them. Haha.

Finally, I realized, that I'm not content with the relationships I have in church. I want them to be more, something greater than what the world can offer me. I have great friends, but what I want is a relationship built on Christ. The blame and responsibility falls on me. It's my fault for staying passive, for wanting an easy comfortable friendship. But that, any social club/gathering can provide me. But I think we need something deeper, something greater. To a point, where I can freely, honestly, and meaningfully call them brothers.

Excited Excited Excited

I'm excited for the retreat.

I wanna get my mind blown.

Had some thoughts on my mind, but I forgot.

Poop your pants for Jesus?

Could you poop your pants for Jesus?

You might ask, why in the would pooping in my pants be in any way for Jesus?

Just answer the question, man.
Could you or could you not embarrass yourself to the utmost, degrade yourself to the butt of all jokes, and ruin that reputation that you have meticulously built up in Jesus name?

Basically, are you still living for yourself?

These are the questions I ask myself.
It sprouted from listening about missions horror stories. One about a guy who, with the utmost loyalty and passion, did not abandon his post at the guitar, because he saw God working. He saw that the music was facilitating the movement of the Spirit. In that moment, he abandoned himself, so that the Spirit could continue moving, uninterrupted, even at the expense of pooping in his pants. At least that's the way I like to see it. ^^

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Thoughts of the day 1/13

Lots of thoughts today:

1. We are said to be jars of clay, meaning that our inherent value is insignificant in comparison to the value of what we hold. It can be said that we hold many things of incomparable value: the gospel, God's love, grace, wisdom, etc. But what I find is that, I, as a jar, am full of ...crap. And because of this, the value of what I'm holding is lowered, the contents tainted and compromised.

Because of this, even though God pours his perfect love into me, others only get to see a tainted, lesser version of it. Same with his grace, and even the gospel message.

So, I just wish to be a clean jar. ^^

2. Was just reading about how Alcoholics Anonymous groups function so well because there is no room for ranking there. Businessmen, teenagers, mothers, high school dropouts, professors, all of these people come with the problem of alcoholism. Everyone is equal in a sense and genuinely welcoming. Kinda like my gothic friends at home. They look scary and they all have problems, but there's a gentleness and a welcoming to those with problems that the church often lacks. It didn't matter that I was an Asian nerd compared the to rest of them, they still welcomed me. Shouldn't church be like that? A conglomeration of people who just have problems, the problem of sin?

3. Ever think about how some examples seem to work so well? Like how silver has to be refined by fire to get rid of the dross, to purify it? and how that example works so well to describe God's process? I get the feeling that God planned it like that. Like, he made silver's purification process work like that, in order to show us tangibly what it looks like. Same thing with purification and snow, etc. I feel like he made all those examples in order to show us more of himself.

"Man is born broken. He lives by mending. The grace of God is glue."
Eugene O'Neill

Javier B.

So I have this friend from middle school and I haven't talked to him in a while and yesterday I got a chance to catch up.

He used to be big into running triathlons and I had thought nothing of it, but he told me he was on the verge of signing a pro contract for triathlons. How crazy is that? He's the same age as I am and he's almost a pro triathlete(?). He also told me he broke some record (local maybe?) for most situps in 2 hours by doing 3114 situps. That's insane!

I guess looking at people like my friend Javi or other peers who have accomplished crazy things makes me want to be like them. I want to be able to fully devote myself to one cause, ignoring all distractions, so that I can live a crazy, radical life. I feel like that might be what it is to live life to the fullest. Being able to commit and follow your one and only passion. and I hope that in my life, it can be my "pure and holy passion", my "magnificent obsession".

Can't believe I didn't write yesterday, but hopefully this will make up for it. ^^

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Conclusion/Daily Update

So, I think I've come to a conclusion about relationships that I'm content with for now.

It definitely ties in with the Abraham illustration I gave previously, where nothing, even the relationship between father and long awaited son, should stand in the way between my relationship with God.

I guess I see it like this. There's no room for a relationship with a significant other unless that relationship supplements my relationship with God.

Being ready for that relationship is a whole different story.

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So, 21 days of Awakening started today. That entails eating only fruits and vegetables (+tubers and legumes, PTL).

It's already been an enticing day. Starting off with a pancake breakfast which I had to attend, but couldn't eat anything to dinner being chicken pasta, fried chicken/tenders, and baked chicken.
Did I mention I absolutely love chicken? Sigh.

This morning I was agonizing over the choice between modified fast vs. Daniel fast. Even without meat, I felt that it would be pretty easy compared to the Daniel fast. Then I realized it's not about my convenience. lol. So since my only excuse for modified fast was my lack of faith in God's ability to provide me with str and desire to have it easy, I decided to stick with the Daniel fast.

Surely God will be good and make himself known to us. hehe.

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p.s. I love meat, but on the upside maybe I'll get to an acceptable body shape for spring break ^^

West/South Quad Snowball fight

It took me two fire alarms to realize that I didn't write in here today. -.-;;

Today I woke up late, went RT shopping, went RT meeting and then came back and slept.
21 days of fasting starts now. sigh. I'm hungry now because I'm up so late. I was supposed to go to sleep like, 2 hours ago! UGH.

Snowball fight was fun. Whitewashed Bo, Brian, and Michelle. Got owned in return. It was all fun and games until they pulled it again. Then I got peeved, I guess. hahahah

Now I gotta wake up in 5.5 hours. SIGHHHHHH.
It's ok.

I will serve joyfully. ^^

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ACCESS IMPACT

Admittedly, I dozed off for around half of ACCESS today, but! the latter half, which I was awake for, really opened my eyes to some things.

1.Recently I've been thinking about how much I fear failure and what others will think of me. Biggest example, I don't like to play sports a lot because I'm too afraid I'll suck and of what others will think of me when I suck. Therefore when I play, I suck. I like to avoid those situations so that I will not have the opportunity to fail. But I think I need to suck it up and just have fun and stop thinking so much about myself. Easier said than done.

2. P.Seth was definitely on the money. I think I love attention. sigh. So I talk a lot, and quite often about myself. It really struck home when I realized that I have trouble keeping somethings secret. I always end up telling people after making a big deal about the secret because I like being sought after to reveal the secret and I also like to publicize when I do something good. Exactly like a Pharisee. I think that's why it resonates with me when people define humility as "Not thinking less of yourself, but rather thinking about yourself less". Definitely need to stop trying to glorify and proclaim my name, and start bringing glory to His name. NawImean?

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P.S. Yay Talib Kweli for being part of Call + Respond. You's ma hero!

Thoughts of the day

1. Japanese people must really resent/dislike America.
In the majority of the manga's I've read, the Americans are always portrayed as power hungry, condescending, cocky, and selfish people. In some, they might have a few outstanding American who are still honorable among many dishonorable Americans, but that's only in some. I guess that is the consequence of taking advantage of other countries.

2. It's funny how people refer to things as the bible. Like in Nuclear 250 today, my g.s.i referred to one of the textbooks as the Bible for Nuclear students or something like that. I'm sure what he meant was that we'll be constantly turning to the book for reference and help. But ironically enough, I don't think Christians really depend/rely on the Bible, nor do they constantly turn to it for help and advice, myself included. Isn't that a shame? I think we should make it one of our goals to bring legitimacy back into that metaphor.

Shower Time Rhymes (Rhyme I composed in the shower)

My name is Sam Beck, bout to lay it down,
I come from a place, known as the T-Town,
They call me the king, love rockin' my crown,
and I spit the illest sound to be found.

My twin's name is Alex, he be keeping it sinful.
Cuz that's his last name man, keeps it suspenseful.
Deadly and skinny like a number 2 pencil.
When he whips it out, it'll be more than a handful.

I also got a roommate, and his name is Bo.
He's from Bloomfield, ya know he's loaded with dough.
Loves riding in his Blazer, equipped wit 24's.
Mess with him, he'll knock out your window.

Last but not least, got a friend named David.
He's so legit man, like an affidavit.
Spends all his time with girls, like half the day, kid.
Just kidding yo, replace girls with praying.

Whew, almost went to sleep without writing.

Had my first classes of the semester today. My Nuclear Engineering prof seems excellent and my Accounting GSI seems pretty chill. Light credit load, hard classes, nice schedule.

Kinda feel like I'm getting back into the swing of things, but I forgot how busy college gets.

Desperately trying to get more intimate with my Jesus starts now. I have a lot of resources around me. Time to sap em till their dry, haha.

힘들다, sigh.

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Old Testament Example

Abraham was willing to give up his son. The son he had received as a promise at the ripe age of 100. It didn't matter that the Lord had promised him great things through Isaac or that his love for him must've been even greater than the usual father/son love.

God told Abraham to sacrifice his son, and Abraham was willing to do it, regardless of how hard and extreme it might seem.

Could I do that?

The only thing harder than forgiveness is the alternative.

It doesn't matter

Sacrifices must be made.

Prep/Ball/Fun

Basically woke up too late for breakfast, so I went to Chipotle with John and Evan.
Then came home, cleaned up, organized, and packed a little today.
Then played basketball with my little bro.
Then ate a fantastic dinner of 돼지갈비 (ribs).
Then went to John's house and played a bunch of fun games: Finger wars, eating 6 saltine crackers in a minute, chubby bunny, telephone with charades (I forgot the name) and spoons.

Twas fun.

Took time to pray from VIP's prayer chart today. yay!

Maybe we'll have deeper entries that discuss more than just a summary of my day.

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2nd Day-Stephanie's Birthday+Mall+Bowling

So today was Stephanie's birthday.

We started off by going to the mall, then eating with my dad, brother, cousin, grandma and Stephanie at Kyoto Ka, a newer Japanese place in town. It was good I guess, we all just got bentos. Then we went back to the mall. I only got boxers, a v-neck, and some 180's to keep warm. Still cost me a bundle.

Then I went to John's house to escape from Brian (he's getting annoying, God help me. No, seriously..) and we watched BET awards '08, shot some pool, and played some rummy.

Then went bowling, where I chipped John's ball by throwing it into the machine. Not my fault, because the lane shut down and it came down for no reason after I threw the ball. Still felt REALLLY bad. Then a fight erupted with these two groups of black people. Spit was spit as weave was thrown as were punches. The owners had to call the cops. We bowled on other people's lanes after they left. lol.

Got home, watched Family Guy with bro and now about to sleep. Almost missed my second day, sigh.

Still slacking spiritually, asdfjaiosjfalsdjf..

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New Years

Things to keep in mind for 2009:

-Return to God daily
-Build discipline
-Pray pray pray
-Read read read
-Break that pride

and I wanna write in this everyday starting today (even if it's a little blurb).

And gotta continue with F.I.E.L.D
-Faithfulness
-Intimacy with God
-Edify others
-Live purposefully
-Discover Indonesia

Been slacking on all 5 probably. sigh.

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